Surrender

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18 Mar 2015

I am an amateur gardener. We didn’t really grow anything at home while I was growing up (apart from some ill-fated beans – for the record Jack in the Beanstalk was not entirely a work of fiction!). You could say, however, that the seeds were sown at an early age by my grandmother who showed me how to gently tease out the roots of a potted plant when replanting it in the earth. She showed me the possibilities.

After my move to Canberra, I have been making tentative forays into the gardening world. I started out with two pots on my apartment veranda and over time they multiplied. Last year, I took the next step and with a giant ‘L’ stamped on my back, (figuratively, of course) I joined a community garden. My Eden is 33 square metres.

Recently I have not been very diligent in watering my plot and last night with great trepidation, I went to pay a visit. As expected my plants were struggling a bit and not entirely green. However, two beetroot seedlings were still going strong and I harvested three zucchinis. I was filled with gratitude to God for looking after the life in my garden, lifting it beyond my own shortcomings. Last night I also prayed for rain.

This morning, we had a storm. I was filled with joy and I began reflecting on my relationship with God and surrendering my needs to him.

I was raised to be an independent woman, to stand on my own two feet, to not depend on others. So the idea of surrendering my needs to God is a challenging one. We are taught that if you need something you have to go and get it. Simply apply more effort and do not give up until you get it. But what if what you need is not within your power or your understanding to obtain?

Matthew 7:7-8 says “Ask, and you will receive; seek, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks will receive, and anyone who seeks will find, and the door will be opened to those who knock.”

This morning I was struck by God’s willingness to answer my humble prayer and by the wonder of God’s gifts. Rain water contains many more nutrients than the water from the hose I use to water my plants.

Lent is often a time for reflection and I am resolved to try this Lenten season to surrender my needs to God, to let Him into my life and to allow my communion with Him to bear fruit.

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